Early New year’s Resolution (be good to yourself)
The year is just a few weeks shy from ending, but I thought that I’d start early with my “New Year’s Resolutions”. I’m not really a fan of resolutions, but in order for me to get something that I never had, I need to do something that I’ve never done
Kaya naman, to get some improvements moving , I need to commit myself to it (yes, goal-setting).
1. I will make myself more open to both praises and criticisms- I tend to shut myself off when I don’t like what I’m hearing or if I’ve heard it a million times BUT still not listening to it. I can be very stubborn and head-strong. I also have a tendency to want to hear more criticisms with my work than praises (weird di ba?!)
Best praise so far (from Ina): “Ang ganda mo! Tanga mo lang at di mo alam.”
2. I will work on my insecurities.- For the past 5 years, instead of confronting my insecurities, I avoided them, and immersed myself in work. They did not go away like I planned.So for next year, I will focus more on my strengths but work on my weaknesses as well.
3. I will strive to have a more positive outlook in life (not to the point of delusional though)- Masyado raw akong negative. Maging cation naman daw ako. Well, I admit that I can be critical and pessimistic. One thing goes wrong, and I tend to feel that everything’s going down the drain. I also do that to my friends. They suggest something and I sate reasons why it won’t work. Kung sa check and balance, ako madalas yung negative. Kaya dapat, mag-state muna ako ng pro’s before cons.
4. I will have more patience to wait for better things to come- And this would entail believing more that there are better things to come. I have to remind myself of my self-worth once in a while, and that I deserve something better .I deserve my happiness, like other people do. I need to believe in love. My relationships need work.
5. I will express my love more for the people I love - am not the most expressive person in the world when it comes to affections and such, but the people I love should feel that they are loved by me, instead of me just expressing my hurt and anger most of the time. I should be more sensitive kasi di ko namamalayan, nasasaktan ko na sila.
Hope is something that cannot be taken away from you. Only you can send it away. So I have to hope and work for a better year ahead. 
